jeff's blog

Been upping the frequency of my training again now that I'm back from vacation and starting to feel better (was quite sick for about 3 weeks). Trying to clean out my basement as I put away stuff from our trip, so I can continue on with my videos on stage 1. It's really sad, but I've been very intimidated by the video taping and have had a hard time figuring out the technology to do it. The last week or so, I've continued to extend the time little by little on my Bitter Pill work and standing meditation.

Another new experience this morning during sitting and harvesting. I think I finally succeeded in diffusing my vision (seeing everything near and far and focusing on nothing) and at the same time for a short while time seemed to stand still. You know how most of the time you work at not following your thoughts, well my mind seemed to totally empty out for a very short while. No thoughts, just being. That is until I thought about how interesting it was. Then it was gone and back to watching thoghts go by.

I had an experience this morning that got me thinking about connecting and harmonizing with someone in a non-martial setting. Let's just say that I reacted emotionally to a situation with someone and we did not connect or harmonize. Afterward, I was dissappointed in how I handled the situation. I was thinking about the concepts of being in the present, and really connecting with the other person, and not having agendas in my mind (intent), but being open to the natural flow of the interaction.