Sat. Mar. 5: Much better today! Began with bagua warm-ups (cross-over, spine stretch, kua pump and turns). Was able to drop through legs and soften/let go during cross-over! Did straight-line walking and circle walking and was feeling fullness moving inside (up and down) during stepping. Did 5 movement qigong and was able to establish mind-body connection (somewhat i think) to mobilizing internal feeling. Let go enough for body to "dissappear/radiate/expand" and guide movements mentally to a very small degree. Still having trouble with control and handling the state for correct movements structurally. note: believe all the weight training and athletics from past has compromised my ability to achieve proper alignment when approaching song state and during movements, will take a lot of time to correct
will do sitting meditation tonight