Have I even done @thewalk before?
Workout - @thewalk Mental Model - @structure @weakness
The meditation before and after standing feel was the same I could still feel my bones even at the end. I walked in a new place with the family, we went somewhere with sidewalks. So I was I was in a new place, a new route, tight streets, cars, people walking, wearing tight clothes, different clothes, self concious a bit because new people and Im doing this weird exercise, my belly was sticking out and I was fighting my psoas, my back wouldnt bend into a C, you get the picture. It made for a very tough walk, It was like trying to grab the stick when the airplane is spinning out of control and all the dials are going crazy, it was like that the whole time. So very good negative emotion meditation, maybe. It was like playing a game on someone elses turf. Everything is fine when you are at your home field, you are comfortable, but when you get out of that environment are you tested on what you really have. My mind was trying to get my body to relax the whole time. I couldnt do any of the normal things and feelings I had been doing. Overall a good walk because my mind and comfort level were being challenged. But this is my baseline. Can I do the walk anywhere under any conditions, this challeneged me to do that. I walked for 25 minutes and I dont know if anything happened in my body. I did feel smoother at the end, I guess thats something. I am not mad or angry it was just interesting to see. Its kind of like my true baseline. I think the next time I walk here I will be more relaxed and maybe do it better. At the end I though something might be different, but like I said I could still feel my structure. I was back in dumb dumb feeling. Like have I ever done this before? Good reminder. I was a little bit scatter brained before the walk and afterwards I would say I felt a bit smoother so that is something. I know it is all good things, Im not mad at any of it, its just a good reminder about the training and how important the mental is and what the body can actually do with the mental. Im glad I had this experience, makes me want to train more. I felt like I couldnt get anything to go. I cycled from the structure to cavities, to the feet, to the standing feel, squeeze and drag, I almost slipped into absorb and project, but I quickly let that go, I was just trying to get something to stablize me out. I eventually settled on none of it and just tried to relax and feel my legs and maintain a C shape and arms relaxed as much as possible and my torso relaxed as possible. Finding nothing and just holding my attention on the present feel. Dunno, but as a training method that makes sense to me, rather than grasp for something or artificially create some feel. @Sifu says strength or weakness to find a point and hold to that. I dont know if this is what he meant, but Im trying to apply that the best I can.
