I am finding that for a while my training, no matter the exercise has been focused at my head or hands and then at my feet, (and then when doing @thewalk my attention has been on my legs because I want to work them), but the middle of my body is a blank zone, even when I do squeeze and drag its not quite getting there. I noticed that today as I ran through the steps that there was kind of a void where my attention should be, so this seems like the next step for me to focus on. I know all of the things are important but I think I need to fill in my attention there.
I am feeling other subtle things like the up and the U, at least I think, but its very quiet, or I have to be very quiet to feel them.
As far as compensations go I am trying not to artificially make feelings happen, by when I’m leaning back and to the right I feel like I should bring that a little bit more on line and work on feeling the sensations (steps) equally on both sides, not just focusing on the right side of my body (which I’m sure makes me lean more that way)
@standingmediation is hard, especially for me in the morning. If there are seven seven stages of grief then I have at least ten stages of meditation that I go through, excitement, fear, fogginess, bargaining, future planning, enjoyment, distraction, focus, distraction again, satisfaction, submission, distraction again, then maybe getting caught out at the end or not. Maybe its the early morning meditation (I thought your mind was supposed to be more clear in the morning), or maybe its just me, but maybe its a lack of commitment I wonder to the training happening, to attention, maybe its a discipline or an ignoring issue/weakness. Still working on it and having fun, just some patterns I have noticed.
