Workout - Standing Meditation
I felt a rubber pulling sensation making me smaller. I tried to relax that and me as much as I could. I think that’s what I’m supposed to do with new sensations, watch them, don’t fight them, don’t try and manipulate them. On the last little bit I relaxed in the front of my hip kua and when I do that and relax down I feel like I am standing on newborn deer legs. I feel super wobbly and my instinct is to not like it. I feel shaky in my whole body, like my structure is unsure. This is similar to what I felt in the walk last week where I relaxed into my hips. I felt a good immersion in today’s stand even though I think I got caught out at the end. The uneasiness is only through a small channel in the front of my legs and down the front. I don’t feel the “stretch” or “wobbliness” all the way around. I have to actively keep the relaxation in my hip kua going otherwise I collapse back and that area gets tight again. Seems like the right direction to go. I also don’t know if I’m supposed to not let the shaking manifest in my body or if I’m supposed to make it quiet.
