TJ July 21

Thur. July 21:  Wanted to test my structure and principles tonight.  Had my fiance push me, and basically do whatever she wanted, with as much force and strength in any direction she wished.  I think I did pretty well.  The keys to remaining stable and unmovable really were coming as close as possible to the 13 points.  It also seemed that if I could get deeper and into my structure passed the meat and things at least for a second, then it gave me time to do the other things like expand the yang surfaces and really sink the tissues.  I didn't think as much about really condensing the yin surfaces (most of my emphasis before this was on expanding the yang) until tonight.  I really had to condense the front while expanding the back to become stable and not be pushed.  The biggest issues I had were opening mingmen (really and truly opening it), keeping the crown suspended, and dropping the perineum when under much force.  I was able to do them well enough to keep her pressing as hard as she could while churning her legs and feet and really driving hard to push me while remaining stable and still, but I could still tell that they had quite a ways to go.  As I would get one of them and the force seemed to dissipate (even though she was pressing harder and harder) it made it easier to get the others.  But I had trouble initiating them on my own right off the bat, I wasn't able to manifest them without some significant force on me.