I started standing back on April 12th. Looking back on that time I am both stuck by how much progress I have made and how much more work I have to do. I have been through a few "seasons" of feelings about my practice. At first I was very excited and progress was quick and easy. My body was changing quite quickly and I was feeling better almost every day. Then as the progress slowed down it required more effort and discipline to keep making progress. Then I hit a bit of a lull, it took me a while to work through what all was going on. But recently I have felt like there is only so much progress I can make when I am collapsed for 95% of the day. It felt alot like all of the progress I was making during practice would be wiped away by poor habits during the rest of the day. I would feel great after practicing but then a few hours later all of that would be gone. So I have been trying to refocus myself on not collapsing during the day.
I am looking forward to getting into bending and stillness.
