I have been doing this training long enough to recognize the states that my body goes through during the learning process. Right now my body is "in between". It's not what it was. It's not what it's transforming into yet. But, it is in a new and interesting phase. My whole body is perceived differently than before. I have found so much body dysmorphia, perceiving my body in a way that does not reflect reality, is the root of the lack of integration in my body. I've noticed when I breathe habitually that is as if I'm trying to breathe into a space just in front of my sternum, outside of my body. There are several other things I am noticing about how my new body map is not only different but more signed to what actually there.
