I am beginning to wonder if there ever is an arguable case for 'Heavy Yi'
The more I become aware when I am using 'Heavy Yi', which is a lot more than I initially thought and spans a host of activities and not just training, the more I see it as a Cortisol 'spiker' which leads to background or low level lingering stress or unnecessary 'activation'.
I am contiunually rewarded by investigating 'Yi' in training
The more time I spend 'checking in' to sort for for where I am in my day in terms of use of 'Yi', the more I am beginning to see the 'thought before the thought' and default 'attitudes'.
This is hard to explain, but I am noticing that, before I 'decide' to do something, that there is a split second 'movie of a plan', and accompanying this, there is an attitude. I’ve noticed the 'movie' before, but now I’m seeing the layers of attitude underneath it—things like resistance, the urge to just 'get it done,' or anticipation.
And I am seeing how often my default 'how' or 'attitude' is 'Heavy Yi.' And I am continually learning how to intercept the 'attitude' before the activation or preparation kicks in.
I think I've blogged about this a few times but I am finding that, like bodily tension, mental habit is layered like an onion. Thoughts behind thoughts, feelings supporting feelings, and layers of preference creating interference. It's never done, when I think I've moved to a 'Lighter Yi', further down the road this I see that this 'Lighter Yi' could be even lighter.
Heavy Yi maybe used to feel like power - but I am more feeling that it adds 'friction' and am seeing that 'power' isn't 'driving with the brakes on'.